To be totally transparent and honest...
I feel morally bankrupt; like I have no soul or can't feel my soul. I am in this sort of spiritual haze where I know I have done things that are morally incorrect...according to my beliefs...and it's like I can't get any relief. And instead of running toward what I believe...I run just close enough so that I can see it...and then something distracts me and I follow that instead. It's a mouse wheel...I always seem to end up right back where I started.
Please God help me...and have mercy on my soul!