Well spoken; I'm sorry that things have been so tough for you lately...and congrats on the new interest; I too struggle with the trust issues...My ex-wife couldn't understand why I didn't trust, and then when she had an affair wondered why I felt justified in not trusting. It's so difficult to be so alone...if there's one thing that most of us have in common in these forums is that we feel so alone. Unfortunately, we're not able to turn off these negative emotions like a light switch.
Thanks for sharing,
Blessings,
Jon