Sitting in uncomfortable feelings, esp feeling unlovable and ugly.

Finally made a phone call to reschedule my dentist appt (took the whole week to psych up and decide which place I even wanted to call)

Ani wants me to go back to 12 step meetings. I have not been going cause of feeling unlovable/unacceptable, since 2 weeks ago. I am tired of running and being frightened away. At the same time, I am also tired of feeling like I have to run away because I am shunned. I hope, like Keena said, it's just the bpd lying to me. He also wants to help me work on BPA book. (Borderline Personalities Anonymous)

thanks,

Carol