Hi confused,
As far as faking, I suppose there are people who do try to fake it, but I just don't get why. I'm just trying to climb my way out of hell. I wish it was just faking...

But, there is another side to this too. When I was diagnosed, I denied it to the extreme. There was NO way this is what was going on and I was determined to make my t believe that come hell or high water.

I've come a long way in acceptance but it seems like I still go through times where I will adamently say no way, I don't have this, it's a fake. My brain is faking this. I don't know what it is, but it is NOT DID.

This is a hard diagnosis to deal with even on the best of days. Because I don't have any awareness of times when I am gone, it can make it easier for me to pretend that it isn't so. To accept that we are DID means that we have to accept that "things" happened, that life wasn't as rosy as we want to believe or want to be so.

I almost think it's normal to go through times where we think we are faking. I know I do at any rate. I wish I were faking it. I wish so many things. Just be very honest with your T and explain to her how you are feeling. If you think you are faking, tell her. I bet she will work through it with you. Good luck to you as you work through this.