Everyone previous to me said it like it is.

4 months is a small price to pay to know now what this really is. You are lucky.
Be grateful you weren't pulled any further into that hole.

"WHEN SOMEONE TELLS YOU WHO THEY ARE, BELIEVE THEM. THEY KNOW THEMSELVES BEST" -Maya Angelou

Be your true self, be true to that self, live authentically. All those phrases will mean more to you as you go forward.

Good wishes coming your way