I'm like the sad clown. I can smile, even when I'm at my low point I smile, I laugh at my situation, it's funny and sad. I saw my therapist today, SHe asked "how are you doing today?" I replied "horrible" with a smile. therapist "With a smile? you're horrible?".

I felt like she thought I wasn't serious, I was faking my condition.

SHould I frown all the time? I do frown. Should I look sad? I look sad some times.

I feel I have to smile, I smile, it's a nervous smile? I smile when I meet people, I smile.

behind this smile is hell, I'm depressed, deeply.