So in the chaos of trying to figure out where I am misfiring theres a bit of confusion going on.

I started seeking mental help with problems for depression and I have a bit of a Adhd problem.
After a few months or so my doctor wants to diagnose me as having aspergers. Which I didnt quite settle with me because i feel they would of picked it up in school.
I was referred to a childhood developmental disorders specialist who says he doesnt think its aspergers but rather schizoid pd.
I also have done nuero testing but still waiting on results.

Part of the confusion is that I also was born prematurely, and have had a couple of minor concussions. ie no loss of consciousness.

In all I happened to think looking at what they've brought up and what i have learned I feel that I am more along the lines of schizotypal (I also fit the background for it, bad pregnancy and emotionally uninvolved and manipulative parents). I want to be with people but at the same time i dont, i cant handle it (walmart is a nightmare i want to hurt people cause all the kids are crying) i dont have the patient nor do i trust people. I dont like to tell anyone anything, it takes a lot of teeth pulling, I feel like that information will somehow be used against me even if its someone i trust. I've been called out before on my "worry". People have second agendas, thats why i love dogs so much more, I can trust them. Shoot even if someone talks to me a certain why or does something i think their up to something. On that same note I feel like this has been getting worse for the past 2 years (im only 20) granted i had problems "fitting in" as a child but did well in school. I day dream a lot and struggle with concentrating my therapist has even mentioned i disassociate like crazy. And while i dont tell anyone really about it i do have some odd beliefs about events that probably dont make any sense but they're true to me. I havent really explained them to anyone... not sure why, if im scared they wont believe me or what. I feel like a big facade, I just show people what they want. Sometimes i feel like I just feel like my body moves on and drags my soul along. A lotta weird things, lotta deja vu moments, at times i feel like im not real or not even connected my bodys just moving in auto pilot (really scary when your trying to walk down the stairs at school haha!).
I get depressed a lot, especially as of late. I get lonely I dont have really any good friends here (maybe like 1) most people are just acquaintances. My emotions get out of control, I get very angry, especially If i feel like someone is trying to be mean or take advantage of me which causes problems at work a lot...
I dont know is there anybody who can help me clear up this mess?