Dear T,

I'm so triggered by today's sessions by both what was said and what was put into my chart that I was able to read tonight. Things I already knew, but just stings to read it in black/white. Plus, I'm really regretting telling you some things today. Wish I had kept my mouth shut. You claim that I had never told you before, but yet I had. May have been many months ago, but they are certainly not new. Telling you that these things are getting worse was my way of keeping you updated, but the truth is, they are freaking me out a bit. I didn't think you'd react the way you did. The concern on your face, should comfort me, instead you've got me scared. You said you're concerned that things are getting worse and we need to keep a close eye on things. But about what, you wouldnt tell me. I've got enough to worry about with my ED and waiting to get into the ED clinic. Really wishing I had kept my mouth shut today.