Dear T,
You said that you would be there whichever way I should decide to go...as though you aren't going anywhere regardless. How can you say that? This is therapy, T. This isn't a friendship, family relationship, etc. you don't know what will happen and not only that - I know nothing of your plans for the future and I know you would never tell me that. Maybe I'm reading too into things and that's not what you mean, but T, I am in no place to make sense of this stuff! I need you to spell it out for me. I'm serious when I tell you that I'm not sure this is working and how the hell I can break through this. You say it's a slow process but its been 2 months already and I'm back at the start.

Oh, and when I revert back to that child-like needy person who asks for your validation and apologizes for being so frustrating I can hardly stand it. I can't stand it later when I think about how pathetic I must have looked to you. I'm finding it difficult to believe you when you say you are not frustrated with me. I don't know what else you could do short of promising me beyond a shadow of a doubt that you will not leave me. But that's impossible