I am absolutely amazed on how much I can myself in every one of these replies. I was diagnosed with bi polar when I was 15 yrs old. Nobody ever explained what bi polar meant to me and I never asked. Hell the only reason I even looked into bi polar was on the advise of someone else in another part of this forum. After reading some other post and these replies,it's all come together and EVERYTHING makes sense now! I'm kinda pissed off that all those years of therapy and not one therapist explaining why I do the things I do. Thank god for Internet forums and good people like you all that are willing to talk about it but also listen! Thank you!