I agree that there are times when I don't want to feel, but in general, I really would like to because I know it's part of what will help me heal. I have talked about this with the therapist, I'm just starting to get extremely frustrated because I honestly feel like a switch shuts off the moment I sit down. I can sit there and talk about terrible things with absolutely no emotion. I think it's weird and it's one of the things I hate most about myself.