This is what really frustrates me. I've told doctors countless times that all these things they are saying isn't right. When I was diagnosed bipolar, when I was diagnosed schizophrenic, when I was diagnosed depressed, DID, BPD and so many others. They pick and choose the symptoms they want to work with so it will fit nicely into their diagnosis and ignore the rest of the symptoms. Like my T who still insists I have DID. It may be possible but I need to work on my epilepsy diagnosis right now with no added stress of trying to prove wether or not I have DID.

Doctors never seem to listen when I tell them what's wrong. I have reoccuring kidney infections, I'd get them 1-3 times every month for a while for some reason. A few different times it got so bad that there was a lot of blood in my urine. When I was a teen I went to the doctor because I had a kidney infection and blood in my urine and the doctor tells me straight "you don't have a kidney infection and no there isn't blood in your urine" this was said before any tests were run. He ran the tests and uncomfortably gave me the kidney infection diagnosis. It happens all the time and it's frustrating.

And like you the doctors have put me on medication I didn't need countless times. And every time I tell them it makes things worse they think it's because I wasn't given the right brand of medication. Mood stabalizers make me moody, anti depressants make me depressed, anti psychotic meds make me psychotic. They have adverse effects on me no matter what brand. When I got diagnosed DID they were saying I had every other diagnosis in the book as well. I had just turned 14 and was taking 32 pills a day. Most for the mental disorders they claimed and when the meds would give unwanted symptoms, like high blood pressure (at 14) they would keep me on the meds and give me blood pressure medication to take as well. They gave me busbar which made me sick and bed ridden for 4 days, and I mean horribly sick, and wanted to put me on nausea medication so I could continue busbar.

They again think I'm depressed. I've been depressed before but I'm not now. They keep trying to give me anti depressants and no matter how many times I tell them "I wont take it, it's hard enough having no energy, I wont get depressed from the medication" they still send me home with depression medication. The one and only time I had suicidal thoughts was when I was on anti depressants. I don't wish to ever feel that way again.

But apparently they know more about me than I know, they know what medications work even though I've tried them all and they made things worse each and every time.

I need therapy, I don't have good coping mechanisms but I don't need medication. My issues are not chemical related they are from a very difficult childhood and I'm trying to work through it but don't need medications to mess that up.