BPnurse....I totally understand! I was a teacher and felt it was part of my identity, too. I left the job, long story, and needed to decompress. I now substitute, and while it doesn't pay much, it affords me the flexibility I need to not percieve as much stress in my life. AND when I am just having a crappy day or week...I don't work! Nobody even knows i missing! Love that part. So, basically, I know you will carve a new path for yourself after you have some time to process the situation. I wish you nothing but balance, harmony and peace.