I feel so embarrassed writing this, but thought i'd let you all know that i contacted my T and decided that i WILL be going in to see her next week.
I told her that i think we have both made mistakes, and she offered my a different day and time to come and see her.
It's going to be hard going back to see her after my stupid childlike behaviour this week.
*sigh* Why does it always have to be so hard!???