So here it goes

My fiance is always telling me I need friends. I know this. I don't have one single actual friend anymore. I've moved 30 some odd times in my 25 year life and I've made so many friends. But they are all in other states, and unfortunately my wedding went to prove that we have grown apart. I had 3 bridesmaids and one maid of honor. I had a work colleague (who I would consider my only friend if she wasn't twice my age and we don't have anything in common but our general morals, but she is so nice and I really like her, we are just two completely different people) a cousin and a old friend as my bridesmaids. I had my best friend from high school as my maid of honor. I keep in touch with the old friend and high school best friend via facebook but that's about it.

So two months before the wedding the friend and best friend were not giving me their measurements for the bridesmaids dresses. So I emailed them saying "You know, I need these measurements by x date so I can order the dresses in time. If you don't think you can make it I will understand just please let me know." Within two weeks they wrote back saying no they couldn't make it. Although I asked them an entire year before the wedding and they both insisted they would be there the whole time until a month and a half before the wedding.

Then a week before the wedding my cousin tells me she might not make it but she didn't know. After a year of her agreeing to be there even she stands me up. Didn't have the decensy to let me know she wasn't actually going, last I'd heard she was trying to figure out a way to get there. So I find out on the wedding day she wasn't going, by her not being there. Other people stood in for the MIA bridesmaids but only girlfriends of my fiances friends. How pathetic!

Since I moved to my home state I met my fiance right away. I had a toddler and worked full time at a very small restaurant where I was the only female. I made friends with my fiances friends (the males) but that's about it. And they are his friends not mine, we just all get along pretty well.

I've had friends on and off since moving here but somehow at some point we stop hanging out. I will text them and weeks later get a text back. By that point I'm busy or something is going on so yeah we just lose touch.

I have no job or license. I sit at home all day every day with my daughter. That's it. That's my life. And my fiance keeps making comments about me needing friends. I know this, but how? I'm so used to being in my little bubble that I just don't know how the propper way to make friends is any more. Before meeting my husband I was in a very abusive relationship where I literally was not allowed to have friends. The neighbor would come over from time to time but that was about it. So it's been about 8 years since I have actually had a friend or made a friend.

I need someone to talk to IRL I just don't know how to go about it without a way to leave my home, with my anxiety of leaving the home and my apparent lack of social skills. I don't know what to do. I get jealous and envious of all these women, all these old friends on facebook who have all these new friends and they have all of these experiences and fun with their friends. I'm not jealous because they have a friend that's not me, I'm jealous because I want friends too. It sucks! My bachelorette party consisted of me, my mom, my work colleague and my husbands friends girlfriend. Makes me feel pretty pathetic

How do you meet people and actually build a friendship? Especially when you're horribly shy, have no way to leave the home and horrible anxious person?