Okay so you've been together 7 years. With no plans to move in together. So, no, you're not together. You are alone. You can be in a relationship and still be completely alone.

Guys with jobs who are single are all over the place. There a tons of them. I know you live in a smaller community. But really, a guy with a job who is good to you exists in this world.

Maybe the first thing is you need to be just you. Pray. Meditiate. Do yoga. Be you. All by yourself. Let the Goddess fill you up with her strength. Let her guide your steps. And pray "Let me find the perfect place for me and my children." You'd be surprised how well that works out.

You are awesome Blue. You have no reason to be afraid. You're not really alone, because we love you. And I believe you are on the path to something better. Remember Iris. First comes the storm, then comes the rainbow.