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Originally Posted by HealingTimes
I feel so embarrassed writing this, but thought i'd let you all know that i contacted my T and decided that i WILL be going in to see her next week.
I told her that i think we have both made mistakes, and she offered my a different day and time to come and see her.
It's going to be hard going back to see her after my stupid childlike behaviour this week.
*sigh* Why does it always have to be so hard!???
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I don't think you should feel embarrassed. I'm really happy and pleased you have decided to go back in and see her. Try to keep an open mind, as your T might just surprise you.
I've just been to see mine. I thought he was sick and tired of my stupid childlike behaviour. I thought I was a giant pain in the rear end. I was wrong, as ever. And the thing is, my T wasn't at all surprised by any of this. They're used to it. They don't judge us like we judge ourselves.
Something my T said that might help you: he said the image of the good-enough therapist vanishes because I don't have a template for that, because I haven't had a good-enough anything else. That I need somebody to trust, but I don't know how.
And that these ruptures ARE the therapy, when they occur, and they're really important. Please try not to fret. I hope it goes well with your T as well, will be in your pocket if you like!