Hello my name is Soidhonia. I am going to leave you the numbers for two hotlines 1-800-273-TALK and 1-800-DONT-CUT. If you need to talk to someone in person call these hotline numbers to talk to a person that may can help you. I am also going to leave you my email address in case you email neohiodbsa@yahoo.com. All information that goes to this email is confidential, you may want to think about talking oto a counselor as well, to help you during the rough time that you are having right no. You do not have to feel this bad, and there is help for you if you get counseling, and the right therapy. Take care Soidhonia