Right now the thing I am most curious about is why I am so upset that this one woman never understands me. It is just not that big of a deal and I know it, and yet it makes me want to cry. I have even seen another outside one this week who immediately understood what I was saying. I saw the second one I see and she got it too. So I don't think it is all just me. But I so badly want the first one to get me. And I don't know why I am so very sad that she does not. No matter what I do.