People either see my insanity as something to entertain them or shun me because of my lunacy. I've put a lot of trust in people who seemed friendly, accepting, and willing to help, only to find out they had been my confidants because they enjoyed sneering at my insanity and my meanderings.
I don't want to be a cut-up anymore. I don't want people to talk to me only because of the zany things I blurt out.