Yeah, that's a good one. For most people, "depression" is being a little down in the dumps, having the blues or feeling out of it. And usually all it takes is a cone of your favorite ice cream to make it all better. But that's not quite how it works for the clinically depressed.

When not in panic mode, I am a people-pleaser. I smile and make jokes and can sometimes be quite charming. But on the inside, it's still all wariness, over-sensitivity and cynicism.