Hi everyone I need help understanding. I've dealt with what I thought was depression and took zoloft, after taking that for 3 months it felt strange and I didn't want to become dependant on drugs, and I felt like taking those types of drugs are bandaids. I want to fix the problem, and rid of it.

But anyway I think I have a bit of attention ***** problem. I feel like I also have self esteem issues. THere better, the last 3 years I really improved myself dramatically, I'm more social, a better speaker, helpful to others ect. So I don't feel like I'm crazy at all, but a few issues here and there.

But anyway I feel like I need attention from people and friends. Like if I post a song on facebook, or a status. I'll start checking back for likes, or reponses. I feel like my brain rewards circuit gets a kick everytime somebody calls me, responds to me, likes something ect. And when I don't I feel a bit upset. And this is what I would love to get rid of, I want to be happy, and content. Like if someone I like doesn't get back to me I start thinking oh they don't like me, or there ignoring me, and get worried. And then it sort of unmotivates the rest of my day. But then if I get a text or whatever back I'm back to being happy. I want to be happy, not from someone, but from myself. I have a lot of things I'm proud of, I'm very talented with music: guitar, drums, singing ect. I'm good with drawing, sports, and many other things. So it isn't that I don't have hobbys because I do. I just need attention, but I feel I channel that vibe to people and they get distant.

So does anyone have a sites or guides out there that talk about how to get rid of this feeling that I could read, or personal insights? Thanks!