It sounds to me like your inability to trust any T's may be the culprit, and it is understandable after the things you went through. What kind of T is this one? Have you seen any T's who deal with trauma or DID? I was just wondering, as to me, they seem to be the therapists that understand me more than others. It sounds like there isn't a lot of emotional "stuff" going on in your therapy, it is more like goals, etc. That is fine, but with what you have said about your issues, you need a T who focuses on your emotional part, and who understands how to interact with those parts. Just my opinion. Don't settle, because in the end, if you are not comfortable, you will probably make little progress. Keep posting (((RFD)))).