Breaking up is really hard but I've done well with the no contact. If I respond to text, he'll turn it into a phone call, into a treat me to dinner, into letting him come clean the chicken coop and yard work and spending the night and then the same bs will start all over. I miss the sob. It's always been hard for me letting go. But I think I'm doing it.

Maybe since I have bpII - hypos don't concern me too much, things could always change of course... But honestly I'm much more afraid of bp depression. Haven had one in a long time - couple years now I think.

I do feel a little fragile today like I Probably will make as few plans as possible for the weekend and focus on self care, extra juice & supplements and cuddle myself in my blankets and watch movies. Might go to a local cinco de maya fest at small park on Sunday. And of course caring for my boys broken arm - surgeon finally called back and can't fit him in her schedule. So finding him a new one, waiting game, docs take their time returning calls.