I feel absolutely awful for not responding to people's very thoughtful comments on my last thread. I want to, but I keep feeling really triggered by all of it.

This isn't really an update, but I did see my T today for the first time since having had such a strong urge to quit (and to stay). I'm thinking about posting about the session, but I feel too wrung out to really say anything now. I know I'm dissociating right now too and I can't really remember a lot of the details, can feel the familiar brain haze. I hate it when this happens. I need to get my butt off the couch and make dinner, but I feel a little stuck. Like literally stuck.