I am so tired of this!!! if I make it til bedtime tonight I will have 5 days again with cutting or burning. I am just feeling so low, depressed and numb tonight and REALLY WANTING TO CUT!!!! I just dnt know what else to do anymore!!! Everytime I try to get help I end up being screwed in one way or another. This time, once again friends talked me into going back to another counselor and then all of a sudden they are claiming that I have a copay which I know dam well I don't!! I cannt afford to pay!!!! I just, I don't know, I just don't care right now about NOTHING!!!!