Recently, I have been feeling terribly overwhelmed - I feel miserable, anxious, depressed, as though nothing I do can ever make my situation better. Physically, I am also having problems - I am very exhausted, my voice is hoarse, and I have constant headaches and various body aches. Even though I am still having my meds managed by my doctor in New Jersey (since I have been between jobs and have been moving about in CO, I haven't had the opportunity to find a doctor here yet), I went to the clinic in this town and had bloodwork done. I seriously feel that something is off, although I don't know whether it is with my thyroid or my antidepressants. However, I cannot keep feeling like this - it is affecting my work, and it is making life extremely difficult for me. I should know the results by Monday afternoon. Also, I feel terribly lonely; I don't know anyone here other than coworkers, and I am embarrassed to say this, but I miss my family and our cats.

I am uncertain whether or not I will stay in this part of Colorado - it is beautiful, but the weather really makes things difficult for me (it snowed again on Wednesday - we got over 15 inches). Also, as I've said before, it is a very tight housing market and it is extremely expensive to live up here. I have a job interview scheduled in Denver on Tuesday, and I can only hope that they offer me the position. This will be my second interview with this company - I interviewed with them before I got the job in the mountains, and although I emailed them, explaining that I had accepted a position elsewhere, they seem to still want me. So, here's hoping. I keep telling myself that things will get better, they HAVE to get better....