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Originally Posted by NWgirl2013
I am a smiler, and a laugher for that matter. My insides are nobody's business.
Just because I (and you) have learned to carry ourselves with some measure of grace does not mean we are not suffering.
My doctor sees the gambit of unhappiness all day long. He told me he looks forward to seeing me because I am "pleasant". And now he tries harder to understand, and works harder to help me.
My doctor had the same reaction as yours at first. I Look Fine. I don't put on the IN PAIN face so I must not be.
Um, no.
My words are telling you.
Just because I don't wear my pain, my depression, my disappointment or heartbreak on my sleeve, or in my happy face, doesn't mean I am not.
What you give, a smile, I hope to get back 10 fold. 
Depression Is tough. Hang in there, I am rooting for you! |
Beautifully put!
I also hide. Except to my psychiatrist and the only reason he knows my true position is that I had a melt down in his office a couple of times. You need to be very clear with your therapist and dr. They can't read your mind and as hard as it is to break the habit of masking your feelings, there at least you must be brave and show yourself.
Just put all your pain on this forum for people who are like you to see. We know it's real whichever face you may present to the outside world
If there are people you can really trust then open up to them but understand that they can't fully know what you are experiencing and may not respond completely they way you wish for them to.
I hope you feel better soon.