I really just don't think I can accept the DID diagnosis or go back down that route any time soon. When they diagnosed me with epilepsy I was under the assumption that it ruled out the DID. But apparently it doesn't necessarily do that.

I am a control freak by nature. It's who I am. And already with the epilepsy I am giving up a lot of control with my life and it's very difficult to accept. The idea that I have no control even when I'm not seizing because of the DID is just too much for me to handle right now. Its like I already barely have any control over my life and thinking about having DID as well, if that is the case I would have absolutely no control in my life which is a huge problem.