you're right, it was a form of rejection. It was a "we're not allowed so it's not going to happen" rejection. I expected it, which is why it took me so long to open up. But the feelings were starting to get in the way of me "opening up" during therapy, she picked up on it and asked me why I "close off" sometimes, that's when I dropped the bomb. I thought maybe it would help me somehow, but really all it did was confirm what I already knew. Didn't change my feelings