I used to feel ashamed but now I simply see myself as a survivor of a lot of eff'd up things and people in my past. They have no control / power over me any longer. All that is in the rear view. Or at least I try!

That said, I also wish I didnt have to take an Rx to prevent me from going back to a dark, sad place. I choose to keep that part to myself. To talk about that would also remind me of all the s*** I put up with and was exposed to, and I dont want to go there anymore. It hurts too much.

I hope that makes sense.