I told my T that she meant a lot to me, and that she 'crawled' under my skin. And that how intense my process also seems to be that she not should be afraid.
because the problems i had where always were there, she only did not know. I started to trust her finally after three years....and now she knows how it is, she sees who I really am.
I told her how impossible it sometimes may seem, we already achieved that she could come close to me, and that is a special thing in itself.

I showed her the messages I've posted here on the forum, I do not know why? I had the urge but whether it is good? I told her that i trust her, that she will not read my posts here....because she respects me.....

but now I think? what did i do?..... I'm a bit manic.....and now she can read all my posts if she wants.

would she do that?