I have really screwed up. I have used drugs as an escape since I was 15. (now 33) I tried crack 1 year ago and ......
lets just say it is a little addictive. I still have my family, my home, my business (hanging by a thread) and I want to be sober. Just thinking about it is hard. I have purchased drug tests and have put someone in charge of testing me. (starting tommorow) but I get the feeling it is not that simple. I am going to work my way into a more active lifestyle and he is acting as my personal trainer. I am broke, but I figure somehow I have supported a 150+ a day habbit for 3 or 4 months now so... I feel so much guilt. I do
not know how to handle it. It is almost like the drugs were to escape the guilt of the drugs. I am emotionally wrecked.
Con someone help me find the upside?