There's definitely a feeling of rejection in it, especially because it isn't because I'm not willing. I'm willing and into most things. He'll say how he knows I'll do anything and try new things, but for some reason masturbating to porn is a choice he makes over sex even knowing we love the same things or that I'm always open to try something new.

I just don't get how that could be preferential over sex. Again if I had a lower sex drive or something if understand and this wouldn't be a problem. I'm sure I'd be a bit upset about the porn but it's more feeling like I'm put aside for it. Like sex should be between us when he wants and when it's convenient to him.