I just don't have a lot of close friends anymore. It often hurts to be around other people and whether I'm switching or just having a difficult time with depression +/or anxiety, it makes it nearly impossible and extremely uncomfortable to try keeping up with friends who are socially active. Being sober makes it harder, too. I guess it's a good thing I'm never really alone, though it does get lonely sometimes. I hope you'll find some better way for yourself, Unhinged. We all have to do what works for us.