Wow... that wasn't my experience at all... I felt so alone after telling him and he didn't say anything...

on bad nights like tonight... I miss xT ... at one point I really felt like he cared and I could trust him... not something I've felt with anyone...but then I just try to remind myself of all of these incidents where he hurt me to keep myself from emailing him...which I desperately want to do...

current T is a woman (which I at first had no desire to see) and I have no fear of ever getting too close to her... she is more like a current day consultant... helping me with boundaries (which I suck at) and anxiety, etc... but she keeps getting into the depression is anger turned inwards... and needing to talk about past..