I've been thinking to myself "I'm not an alcoholic i just like to drink a lot"and then i think of all the people i have known in the past ,who just liked to drink a lot.I think of what i thought of them when i was a child.I even new then that they werent right,thaey would be different from the sober people i knew wether it be an uncle,my stepfather they where drunks,my best freinds father,he was also,i remember these people and im trying to see myself in them,try to see waht they where like when they were 30yrs old like me,and you know what.I can i can see as clear as day.the only difference is that i have this pc and an outlet,even as i sit here right now with another bottle of whiskey in hand and another failed day at sobriety.I dont want to be like them i really dont.Ahwell theres allways tomorow,but only a limited amount of times i can say that.