There's no point.

This is the point where I'd say I need medication.

But there's no point. Might work. Might not. Might have another episode, switch meds. Fine, stable. Another episode.

What for?

I'm ready to give up.

I don't want reasons not to. This is bipolar, I don't control it, it controls me. Even when i thought I had control. That wasn't control.

I wanna give up.