Sometimes a wall has to be built to keep the water from rising in a bad way.
Inside that wall, put some people either from your life out there or from the forum. The more people, the easier it is to build the wall. Storms only last so long, then the water begins to subside.

You can hold back the rising water by adding another liquid, ie, blood. Nor do you want to deplete yourself from any strength that you have. There are more ways than one to get to the sea. Not everyone takes the same path. If the first one you walk down becomes too confusing or is blocked, retrace your steps and try another trail.

Being kept from your sea will only make it more beautiful once you find your way. There are two people in you. One is the physical and the other your mind. Its your mind that will get you through, but you can't get to your sea without your body. Help is here at the forum and even though we are just words on a computer, there are people behind those words. All of them are are walking with you and when you succeed, those same people will find strength from your success.

Don't give up on yourself. You are special. Individual. There is no one else in the world like you and the world will be less if it loses you. Have faith in your own inner strength. Not everyone has gone through what you have and you are still here.

Sam2