Dear t
I'm scared. Each session ends with me in complete despair. You say that one day I will trust you enough to explore it more, I thought I did! You say you have been there you actually told me you spent ages in bed, like I do , cause its safe there. What you can't do is make it go away. The fact I hate my job doesn't help but it takes time to change it and I'm trying. You are away in a weeks time and I don't know how I'll cope. I have not let myself contact you for weeks now so I know I can do it on my own, but its going to be one hell of a week.
I want someone to make it all stop but no one can.