Thank you all for replying to me.

I understand now that I didn't fully trust her and I was pushing myself too hard, and I need a different therapist, probably someone who has more experience.

I am taking a break because I'm going on a holiday for the whole summer and coming back in August/September.

There were other things that happened outside therapy that pushed my trust away, I ended up doing the same course as her neighbor and we were talking about her without me even knowing that it was my therapist we were talking about. World is small.

I would say that the whole experience was weird in many ways and I am looking forward to therapy after three months. And yes, I did gain some things, just wished it was a bit different.