I'm young, I'm 14 years old. I have been in/out of hospital inpatient mental health unit many times in the past year. I have been diagnosed with ADHD, Borderline Personality Disorder, and an anxiety disorder/agoraphobia.

I have been taking Concerta 54 mg for around six months.

I am not hyperactive all the time and do not feel like I am "driven by a motor" as many diagnostic tools list as a symptom. I do experience major mood swings, which I blame the BPD for, and these moods cause me to have extreme sessions of high energy and false happiness. I easily switch back into a severely negative emotion; extreme anger, depression, suicidal.

So, I am only hyper sometimes.

I am easily distracted, but I'm still aware of what's going on and that I have been distracted. I mean, when I get distracted, I am completely aware of it but can't switch gears back to the main focus.

Because of my extreme anxiety, I do not enjoy talking to people. I never make eye contact, and I let my mind wander off to positive things to purposely distract myself from the present; my fear and worry causing me a great deal of distress.

It appears as if I'm not paying attention to what people are saying. My mind can easily filter what people say to me ; I only hear what I want to hear, or what's important and needs to be heard. Other than that, my anxiety takes over and I do not want to be in the present moment, so I block out my mind .

I love doing puzzles. Jigsaw puzzles. Word puzzles. I am absolutely obsessed. Honestly, that's all I'm asking for in June for my birthday. I am a girl, and yes I should be asking for girly things like makeup and clothes, but I don't want that. I don't wear makeup . And my clothing style is pure comfort.
Anyway, back to what I was saying: puzzles. I can sit and do a jigsaw puzzle and completely be lost in the puzzle. Intense focus. For hours. I will completely neglect my personal needs like using the washroom and eating. Puzzles will always come first. I am quite sure the majority of people with ADHD can't say they can sit and do a jigsaw puzzle for 6 hours without getting distracted or without changing activites even once.

Basically what I am saying is, I don't agree with my diagnosis of ADHD. I have amazing attention skills when I am alone. When I'm in a social situation, I daydream to cope with my extreme anxiety.

What is your opinion ?