it's almost 5 and I'm supposed to go to my friend's house for a cinco de mayo sleepover. i've been looking forward to this, but i got so drunk last night and i feel horrid today. anxiety and feeling depressed after i was beginning to feel a little better.

i know going would prob help me feel better, but i don't know what to do. i don't want to go and be a party pooper. think i'm going to text my friend and be honest. see if we can meet up this week.

i don't why i get such anxiety beforehand when i tell my friend's i'm feeling down or whatever it may be. i'm lucky to have such understanding friends, but still...i'm always afraid of letting them down or not being my best around them.