T,

I'm going to destroy the journal. It's too risky. No one should ever know. It was a mistake to tell you. I see that now.

I'm going to end things. I am trying to wait until the kids are grown but it's getting harder and harder to wait. I don't know if I can. I can't wait to be at peace.

Life is strange now. And funny. I see everything clearly now. I am sorry I involved you in this. Please don't be mad at me. I'm going to call you tomorrow to thank you for everything.

I think it won't be long now. The right time is near