Oh, one more thing.

I'm not comfortable with this title of "personality disorder", because its 1) a label and 2) places blame/responsibility on you (me), which may not be appropriate. In my case, I dont think it is. Its not a "disorder", its a *facet of my nature* if I was susceptible to bullying and parental rejection.

Two different things.

But this is still maybe the best place for me to post.