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shortandcute · May 05, 2013, 06:39 PM

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Originally Posted by shortandcute

My second husband and I both suffered from clinical depression, and it was very difficult. Partly because, as it turned out, all he wanted was for someone to "take care of him." I didn't have it in me to do that since I was pretty far down myself, and I didn't realize how bad he was. He started drinking again, and eventually getting back into drugs again, and eventually cheating, because his depression kept getting worse. Of course, then mine got worse, too. I let myself and my house go. I put on weight. I started becoming psychotic. I would wash my hair, but then never brush it, so it would be a tangled mess--then I would just chop out the tangles, and it would be a total mess. I looked like such a mess that people who didn't know me thought I was homeless. I didn't take very good care of our son.
Eventually, my husband filed for divorce, then committed suicide about 4 months later. I've known some couples where the husband and wife were both depressed and they made it work, but that wasn't the case with us.

I also wanted to add that I became very violent, too. I would hit my husband, throw things at his head so that he would need stitches, etc. Oftentimes, he was drunk, so he wouldn't remember what happened--he would just wake up and find an open wound on his face, or a knot on his head and assume he got in a bar fight the night before. After we had split up, I saw him and one of his girlfriends walking home from the laundry mat; I had our son with me, so I went up to them so my son could at least say hi to his dad--and the next thing I know, I was beating the crap out that woman!!! During my psychotic times, I was hallucinating quite a bit too.