Hello I feel the best thing to do is make the right decision that keeps your mental health in a SAFE arena. that would mena seeing a professional and letting them help you if there is help for you. The oprofessional will let you know what help is available for you fif they are unable to treat you , so either way it is a win win situation, in your case, to let the professionals decide what is best. I hope the best for you take care Soidhonia