(((((((((Wendy))))))))))
Gosh I wish we all lived closer here....you are all being so wonderful to me. Thank you.
He has had this problem for years now. I did give him an ultimatum almost 3 years ago (he had blown most of my paycheque on machines when he said he was gone out to pay our bills then). He promised it would never happen again....he would talk to his doctor, etc. That never happened and for the past several months I begged - literally begged him to open up to me. I have put up with so much and was wearing blinders with all of this. He denied it everytime I asked if he was gambling so I had all my trust in him that he wasn't. That has been the hardest thing to swallow with all of this.....the lies and betrayal of trust. I told him since we first met, be honest with me and I am with you for life. Now he has admitted that he has lied for ages now about so many things.
If he took any steps to get help I think I would support him....but today all he is doing is sleeping. He started closing on Mondays (he started opening the bakery on Sundays). I asked him this morning if he is going to make any phone calls (gamblers anon, etc) and he looked at me like I have 3 heads.

. I feel like I am not important enough to want to get help....he actions are proving that to me.
I just feel so lost and alone. I gave him so much and he trampled on me.

Feels like I am wearing "sucker" on my forehead.
Love you too sis....thank you.
xoxo

Heather