This is my first time on this thread but I have to say it is so nice reading that there are other people like myself. With the BPD I also have GAD, OCD and Depression. All these labels when in reality I am just me. I can say what I feel here and know that you will not judge me. Thank you guys! My therapist was a lovely lady but I didnt always tell her how I felt, it is extremely hard telling anyone else but really secrets do not help you. Tell all, it is the only way to understanding yourself. I had therapy for 18 months and still felt cut adrift when it was done. That was 2 years ago. Sadly, I am about to start again. Old stuff rears it ugly head yet again. My head is full to bursting, my emotions are all over the place and I am still trying to hang in there. My grandchildren and my work are what keeps me going but I tend to overcompensate with both. Right now, I feel lost, lonely, cold, sad, weepy, terrified of what is coming next, but at the same time so angry with myself for not being able to control it all. Yes, I am a control freak when it comes to me. With everyone else I tend to be a bit of a walk over. Ugh! Horrid combination. Ahhh well, again, it is me and although I am trying to be in control of this person it is not to be. Better at times though hooray.!