((((tinyrabbit)))) I´m so sorry that you got these responses and that it made you self doubt a lot. As a child you deserved loving parents that would meet your needs unfortunately it did not happen and now you have problems because of it. And it is understandible you have them and sure it is not your fault. And you deserve to get help so you can have good life and start to feel good about yourself. Everybody deserves that tinyrabbit even if people tell you otherwise.

My father was horrible to me and it hurt my feelings but I sometimes feel that my mothers pretending that everything was fine and there was no problem maybe hurt me even more. Like there was no alcohol problem in our family, it was never talked about and it seemed it never existed the only person with the problem was me. That is how I felt unfortunately this feeling stays with you for long time.

People from the general public say many things that are just bul...s..t like in my country when child runs away from home people comment that when the child gets back home the parents should beat it to stop it from running again. Would you agree with that? I never would there is so many things like this....people just don´t know the situation they just assume ...and very often they are SO wrong.

Tinyrabbit I really hope you feel better soon that this will not get to you anymore and you take care and be kind to yourself. You are on my mind girl.

(((((hugs)))))